I did it!

Surprisingly I didn't shed a single tear. Well...yesterday I didn't! Maybe I got it all out the week before. I was expecting water works but I was to busy to even notice I guess. It was the sweetest thing! I got a little misty when she jumped on the bus but that was it! I was shocked! I was good.

Mike took us to breakfast after the dropping off ordeal to cheer me up but I didn't need it! Blue was the one who needed the cheering up! She kept refusing to do anything until Macy got home! It was cute and sad all at the same time!

I think all teh antisipation and stress took it's toll on my body insstead of my emotions. I could not relax all day yesterday! I found myself with tense shoulders and a tight neck. I had teh worst tension headachand. I feel better this morning! Off she went again full of excitement! It's hard not to be ok when she's so stinkin cute!!!!

Tomorrow

Tomorrow my Cricket starts school.

No exclamation marks.

Complete anti excitement if I must be honest. I'm sad. Very, very sad!

How on earth did today finally make it here on the count down chain. One last day with my Cricket all to myself. Oops...a tear!

Not really sure how I'll survive seeing her off Tuesday morning...another tear!

Being a mom is hard. Harder then I imagined. Harder then the lump in my throat I'm trying to swallow away right now! I'm a big baby and I know it!

Do you think she'll let me snuggle her in my bed all morning?

Holding her.

Smelling her.

Looking into her big brown eyes and remembering her as my first baby bug all those years ago.

Pretty sure she won't let me. Maybe that would make it that much harder.





I'm already a wreck. This is hard... very, very hard.

I'll be rendered useless Tuesday. Oh Cricket....

Face Book Happiness

Yesterday I found a very special someone on Face Book!!! Probably my most exciting find yet! NO offense people if this find trumps me finding you!!!

I found my 4th grade teacher Mrs. McKay!!!!! How fun is that! She was defiantly one of those teachers that's comes to mind when people ask you "Who was your favorite teacher?"

She's as darling as ever ans totally remembered me! Just chatting with her brings back so many great memories!!!

So who have been some of your amazing Face Book finds? Old boyfriends, college roomates... FAce Book is a great treasure hunt isn't it?!?

Getting back into the swing of things!

What a weekend! Emotional as you can imagine and wonderful all at the same time! It was a beautiful service for our cousin. His family was amazing ans so inspirational! I love his mom and dad and siblings to pieces!

We saw family we haven't seen in over 7 years and getting to catch up was amazing! It reminded us of how close we really are! We didn't want to leave! We stayed up late each night visiting, playing games and reminiscing.

Mike and I are truly blessed to have such wonderful extended family! WE left feeling closer as a couple and a family in general. We were reminded how fragile life really is and how we need to be working on relationships and creating memories!

The reason for our gathering was a sad one but it resulted in blessed perspectives and renewed relationships! I will forever be grateful for that!

We fell a little under the weather while there! Mike barely escaped getting barfed on by Blue in the middle of the night! I came home with a cold and Charlie had snots that left snail trails all over her face! Thankfully by now we all seam to be on the mend and ready to jump back into the swing of things!

I have plenty of photos to post but have ton on my plate right now!

I'm finishing up a lot of projects and will have plenty to share soon!!! 'till then...

Sad news

Yesterday morning we woke up to find a very heart breaking email. Mikes cousin died in a single engine plane crash Saturday afternoon leaving behind a loving wife and 5 kids. The news was shocking and it's all we've been thinking about. Our hearts ache for his family. Not only was he a devoted father and husband but also an older brother and first born son.

He comes from an amazing family who we adore. His parents and especially his mom live, breath and eat for their children. There was never a visit or email or gathering where she didn't pull out family photos and beam as she related their latest news. As a mother myself I can not imagine how a grieving mother can cope with this tragedy.His younger siblings are equally amazing. How on earth do you ever get used to being a family with one less brother.

Sadly I can't think about this tragedy and not go to that scary place I try so hard to avoid. What if this happened to me? My greatest fear in life is losing Mike or one of my children. My world would end. I would fail to function.

It's a harsh reminder of how precious life is. How we take for granted the time we have been giving to love and be apart of someones life. It makes me want to hold on to my family with everything I have and never let go.

I pray that our Heavenly Father has welcomed home his son with loving embraces. That He will comfort and bless his loved ones left behind. I pray that those who love and care for his family will know their needs and do all they can to comfort his wife, children, siblings and parents during this trial.

We will be heading up for the funeral on Thursday.