Thin can suck too you know!

Here's a double standard I HATE!  You'd never go up to someone and say " Dude! You are so fat! Look at that belly and check out your butt! Beep beep beep.....make room for wide load!!" If you did you'd probably lose friends, be labeled as a totally insensitive idiot and not be invited to social gatherings for fear of you causing spontaneous cry fests from over weight friends!

So then why is it totally acceptable for people to comment on thin, underweight people? Trust me...being thin doesn't make one's life as rosy and rainbow filled as you'd think! Have you ever thought that maybe, just maybe, that thin person struggles with body imagine just as much as someone who is overweight? Speaking from experience....WE DO!

My entire life I've been underweight! Shoot....I lied on my license and said I weighed 91lbs. when I was 16 because I was so embarrassed that I was still in the 80's and in high school!I never wore tank tops for fear my stick figure arms would scare small children and who likes growing up and having everyone assume you have an eating disorder! I had an ugly man face, huge teeth covered in braces and the body of a 10 year old! Pretty glamorous right!

I wasn't until I was a sophmore in college that I finally hit the 100 pound mark! I gained 10lbs. in college, got stretch marks on my butt and finally started liking the way I looked.My face filled in, my arms looked normal and I could shop in the Jr. Department!

As an adult I've watched my body totally change as I've grown babies inside, watched my hips spread and never go back, watch my boobs go from barely there to "Thank you Breast feeding" to "really?Just a nipple!?" I've wished for more weight, I've wished for less, I wished for energy and strength that this small little body just can't provide! I've wished and I've wished and I've judged and I've been disappointed in my own body! I've never been immune to the criticism of self image.

So here's a little food for thought people! Just because someone is thin doesn't mean there life is perfect and magical! Just because a thin person is starting a workout routine doesn't mean they are trying to lose weight and you should avoid saying things like " Why on earth are you working out?" Heaven forbid a thin person wants to add bulk to a frail and sick looking frame. Heaven forbid a tiny person wants to feel strong and accomplished. I know you mean no harm but think about it....would you ever say the same things to a fat person that you say to a thin person? We all know you wouldn't.

Dear Mr. Sandman,

Where the heck are you? Your absence is causing me to think and that can only lead to self realization! Not good at 2 am let me tell you! Major life changing decisions are probably not meant to be made in a sleep deprived state of mind. O they are!?! Time will tell. In the mean time do you mind high tailing it over to my house for a little sumpen sumpen! Get to work already!


Love ( I use that term loosely!),

Me

Things I can't resist...

Try as I may I can not resist the following... EVER!...

• eating a fry as I drive home from the drive through! All the while I'm telling the kids we can't eat until we get home!
  
• taking a bite of a hot pocket right after I take it out of the microwave...I know it's going to burn my freakin mouth like hot lava and render me a mute but I can't resist the hunger and delicious smell combo!Burn me once shame on you! Burn me twice, shame on me! I know I know !I'll never learn nor do I want to!
  
• I have yet to meet a maple bar I didn't love! If the meir thought of a Maple bar crossed my mind I can't pass one up! I've tried! Trust me I've tried but I fail miserably! I must say...it's pretty freeing when you can realize your faults and move forward.I chose to move forward with a donut in my hand! So what?
• finishing my kids meals!
• Consumption of Mint Oreos by the sleeve. This is why I don't buy them! EVER!
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Basically most things I fall victim to are food related! I'm ok with that!

Studio 5

I know I know! It's a cryin shame I don't blog like I used to! To be 100% honest I miss it like crazy! I miss just getting on here and throwing up my feelings and ranting about life. I'm totally blaming it on Blue Cricket Design! It's a part tiem job that's for sure and by the time I'm done working on that blog I have littel energy to devote here and on my family blog! Lame! Lame! Lame!!! I know!

Just know I'm still alive! I'm still driven crazy by my kids, hate folding laundry, hate preparing for my Sunday calling, love reality and miss all my interaction with you!

Here's what's been keeping me busy this week. Studio 5! I had two days notice and busted out a handful of headbands! I loved doing this! Funny, and only the people that know me would notice but again I look super boring on tv! I'm way more off the wall and crazy in real life!