Oi Vey

The lack of sleep is definitely catching up with me! Charlie is a snuggle bug sleeper. Translation...Sleeps best when I'm holding her. Translation: I sleep horribly and end up holding her in bed all night! Seriously kid! And it's only at night! Right now she's happy as a clam by herself sawing logs for a good three hours! Go figure! I don't remember my others being this attached at night! It's been rough!

I'm also dealing with a lot of other random things that don't seem to be helping. I'm of course feeling the guilt of having to share my time and attention four ways. There's no way around this one!Guilt is guilt and when you toss in hormones and sore boobs it's a recipe for disaster! I started "Special time" with the girls where they get one on one time with me. Today I painted Blues nails. She was in heaven just the two of us!

I miss Mike too. He's here but I'm so wrapped up in being a mom and he's totally picking up the slack. We're both living these totally busy lives with different responsibilities, we seem to be passing each other. I feel it more then ever because I'm completely falling in love with him all over again as I see him doing so much. It's like all I want to do is stop everything, climb into his arms and just be with him. Tell him how much I adore him and appreciate all that he is doing and just sob! ok... I did that this morning and he just let me! One more reason I love him.

Love makes you feel crazy inside! It's a good crazy but lately my love seems to be oozing from my eyes in the form of tears! I'll look at my kids and tear up. I think about Mike my eyes leak a little more! I love it actually. This is one time in my life I really give into my emotions! Again...hormones, sleep deprivation and new baby spirits tend to do that to me!


Charlies been a good baby in general. More needie in the sense that she loves to be held but it's easy to hold something you love so much. The girls are having their moments as to be expected! I still wouldn't wish these days away. I'll never have Charlie as tiny as she is today. We'll never be this amazing team, working together in all of it's newness. It's a good time in our lives.

There has been a lot swirling around me in the last week. I'm trying to do my best and keep everything in perspective. What's really important, what I can and can not control...I'm trying to focus on the things that I want to remember and not on the things that could cloud it all up.

So basically you could say I'm a typical new mom! Enjoying the highs and lows of a new baby at home and all that involves! I'd never give it up! I'd never trade it for anything! I feel blessed to be who I am, as I am, with the litlte family I've helped create!

DUDE!!!

After contractions are NO JOKE!!!! I forgot how much they SUCK!!!! Shoot me now please!

Oh yeah... Milk due any day! More complaining to come!

Baby: Awesome!
Hospital stay: Awesome!
Wearing a diaper (ME): not awesome!
Lortab: AWESOMER
Blue Bird saying when she holds Charlie for the first time..." This baby stinks!": Awesomest!
Having to wash my sheets only 45 minutes after being home: Not so awesome!
My dishwasher STILL needing to be unloaded: far from awesome
Having a sweet baby to love: The ultimate awesome of all time, ever, in the world!

Peace out!

She's here!!!

Check out the family blog for all the details!!! Better photos to come!! We were snapping pics in the wrong mode!!!

ok ladies...the sleeping fairly dropped off a present and it's lovingly calling me to slumber!!!

talk to you soon!!

Baby Day!

Say good by to my belly..at least at it's largest! It's baby day!