Favorite state to be in!

In all our hectic lives we find ourselves wishing for more... more time, more help, more energy, more sleep! It's rare to find ourselves in a calm and complacent state of exisitence where all the stars seem to be aligned and the world is perfect as we know it! We all seem to be working for the greater goal that dangles itself like a carrot in front of us just beyond our reach! I am guilty of this all to often, wishing for a warmer day, a cleaner home, a healthier body. Gratitude and joy are harder to feel when tasks are piling up, kids are at your heels and your own spirit feels distant and unfamiliar.

I am trying harder each day to find the happy balance in responsibility and filling my well. Too many days go by where I lay down at night only to realize I did exactly the same things I did the day before and non of the things included enlightening myself. What is it that would bring me satisfaction? What would cause me to be content with a day not only dedicated to my family and my home but also to me! Honestly I don't know how to answer that! I have to figure that one out.

There are those moments that we have all experienced when we know we are doing it all right!
For me it's been moments alone with each child, their eye's staring into my own and all their innocence is on display. Or it's laying in bed at night sharing those last few words with my husband as we share our days accomplishments. Even if there wasn't much to share it's just the safe and familiar presence of each other that initiates those feelings of purpose and calm.

How ever those moments make them selves known I need to work harder on 1. recognize them when they do happen and 2. creating more moments like that. Making it my days purpose to have a fulfilling moment where all my stars do seem to be aligned and my world in harmony. Even just the thought of that makes me urn to try harder, relax a little more , stop for just a second and redirect my day!

This must be my own self going through it's state of "Spring!" A time where we take a mental inventory of what we are doing right and what we are doing wrong and what we want out of life! A time for new beginnings. I am grateful for change but more so the idea of something better! Not that life has dealt me a bad hand. I can never say that! I feel so blessed to be who I am, with who I am and have what I have! I just feel the need to press forward, striving for something better. I love this state of mind that fills my thought. It's the want for purpose, the need for new. It's a Spring awakening inside me that I am finally letting out!

All hail the mighty UTI

So there are a few times in life when a burning sensation is welcomed and almost looked forward to. For example... When you are overwhelmed by the spirit and a burning feeling overcomes your body and it is simply undeniable that you have felt the Spirit touch your heart. Or perhaps it's that feeling when you finish a long race you never imagines yourself finishing and your face burns and your heart pounds in your ears!!! And don't forget all those childhood moments when you swim for hours in a not so heated pool and jump out only to quickly run to the hot pavement and stretch your shaking body over the burning floor for life giving heat. I'll even go as far as saying that it's a welcomed feeling to PUSH finally after 24 hours of labor and all that pain and energy can finally work towards your advantage as you push through all that burning down there and you finally get to meet that precious new baby!!!

Burning sensations do have there place in all our lives but I for one have had it with the looming burning sensation I have been dealing with! There's nothing like a burning sensation every time you pee, think of peeing or finish peeing! Ah yes!!!The UTI fairy has struck again! This time she's held nothing back! She must be pissed it's been so long since her last visit! I swear she thinks it's her duty to remind us woman that it sucks to be a girl! I can usually combat her nasty dose of pain and vengeance with a fast trip to the doctors and BAM it's another victory for me! But not this time! Oh no!!! I am forced to pee every 10 minutes and only get a tease of a release and cringe at the thought of squeezing anything out for days now! Yep!! Almost a week I have been hating my "Cha-chee!" Yeah...That's what we call it over here! My Cha-chee!!!

Monday my effort to kill it with meds went unnoticed by UTI warrior beast that reigns inside me! Wednesday I even went so far as to bare my bum for a nasty Peanut butter shot that Stephanie remembers all to well! Can we add that burning sensation to the "Not so fun" list!!!! And still I sit here with my "area" not so happy and what am I to do!?!? NOTHING!!!!!!! For real this sucks!

I'll give it one more night before I wish I was born a boy but my land... It really sucks being a girl right now!

Bachelor time! & A Happy Birthday Queen!!

So I originally thought from the previews of this seasons Bachelor that he was going to be a little dorky but after watching last night I have decided that I really like him! I do have to say I was underwhelmed with the girls. No one really stood out to me like they have before!Oh well!

I know I'm not the only one that wonders this but I always wonder how I would do on one of these reality shows! It's probably not a good sign that I watch a handful of Reality shows so I constantly and fantasying how I would do. could I make it through a first round on Bachelor? Could I survive in a jungle on Survivor! Would I be catty and form alliances on Big Brother? Would I shave my head if Tyra asked me to for ANTM? Who knows! In all honesty I really don't think I'd get to far on any show but heck... if that guy Chet made it 17 days on Survivor doing nothing so could I so maybe I could do ok!

So that Brings me to this question...If you could be on a reality TV show what would it be?

The only one I really would love to be on is Amazing Race!Not sure who I would do the best with. Mike always says we could never be partners. He has no faith in me!!! I think I could do good , or have a lot of fun, with my sister Jenny or my SIL Steph!!! WE may not win but we would have a blast!


AND... I just had to send a birthday shout out to my SIL Steph! Best of all she was a best friend before she was sister in law so thats why I love her even more!!! Have a great one lady! Love ya!

Bit by the bug...

The Spring Cleaning bug that is! I had a great day of cleaning today!For sure Mike will happy to come home to a REALLY clean house! I did three closets and my entire up stairs! I even did 2 loads of laundry AND folded them right away! My laundry room looks better then ever! Ahh I love that! For sure it had been forever since I really got down and dirty with the organizational cleaning. It's funny how in to it I can get when I am in the mood! I just have to run with it or I'll lose it!

Mace was such a huge help! I gave her jobs to do and she happily did them! We cleaned for 3 hours with no complaining, arguing or fighting! It was wonderful! I have seen a beautiful change in her over this week. The forced quiet time/naps and no tv have been miracle workers! She is back to her wonderful self! I have to remember that she can channel her energy in either a good way or a bad way. I have more ability now to help gear her in the more positive ways! I just adore that sweet girl!

Last night Mike took Mace on a Daddy daughter date and they saw Disney Princesses on Ice! The had such a great time! Macy more so then Mike I guess!She was so excited and dressed up as Snow White. When I asked her if she clapped she said "Yeah mom!I clapped to the rhythm!" Funny huh! That left Blue and I to a night of our own. I just love the one on one time we had. She is just a ball full of cute and I loved listening to her tender voice and giggles as we enjoyed dinner together at the bakery! We took Our time and I just watched her be a happy kid!That's really all I want for my children at this stage...to be happy, know they are loved and find the joys in every day. It was a great night last night!

So I am using a rental car right now while my car is getting repaired! I have a KIA Sedona and I am in love with it!!! The whole idea of a mini van is wonderful! The kids love the room and so do I !It's just such a treat! The ease of getting kids in and out is such a difference! Oh I never want to give it back!

ok chica's ... I hope you have a great weekend! I, like all to often, have nothing special planned! I can't wit till it gets warmer so I can spend the weekends outside or doing projects in the garage! take care!